40 Kinds of Sadness

The day that you stepped out of my life, is the day I would never forget.

The day that you made me feel vulnerable, the day that you made me feel weak, the day that you made me feel lonely again.

I couldn't imagine a world without you, for I would have given you the world and so much more, but unfortunately, the feebleness of things caused this special feeling we had for each other to be casted away to the forbidden lands of the forsaken ruins.

The then feelings we had for each other somehow surreptitiously took its toll on us and eventually gave way to other people to affect our lives.

Although I must say it's not easy to have let you go after the 3years of selfless attention and care that you have shown and given to me. But I guess the thought of just not being with you for all of eternity just etches in my mind and now I just have to live with the past put behind me.

I would have never even thought that we would be apart after a year of what seems to be a real roller coaster ride of emotions. And without you telling me that you too had that same feeling, I guess we would have never gotten to where we were 5 months ago.

I missed the times we shared, the times we had together.

For you have never left my side no matter what. You were always there, prepared to catch me when I fall, hold me close when I'm slipping away, and keep me warm from the cold cold world out there.

You never left me unattended everytime we go out, and you never left my side even though I never really knew anything or everything about what was going on when we went out.

The snuggles and cuddles and pecks on the cheeks we seem to lay on each other when we said goodbye or just when the time seems right makes everything seem so worthwhile.

I guess it's never going to be the same without you.

But for my sake, and yours, I hope we'll be much happier than what we were in this last 3 years, although I couldn't argue that these 3 years has been the best of my life, undoubtedly.


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