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5 things I would like my girlfriend to do for me :

1. Stop biting/chewing/eating ice ( Baybe, seriously, it's not good )
2. Watch me play futsal/football one day so that she would realize it's not dangerous !
3. Stone with me till the rest of eternity
4. Spend the night watching movies till dawn where we'd cuddle and eventually sleep at the same time (again)
5. ( I'll leave this blank...for now. Coz' 4 just seems like a bad number, no? )


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I skipped school today, don't know when I'll ever go back.

Even so, I slept at 4am, woke up at 7am. And then slept till now.

Gawd, life couldn't be any more fucked up, oh wait, it could.

The people haven't started to contact me yet. Pfft.

Someone please save me. Ugghh.


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Jiwangz.

Actually it means romantic, but wth la. I'll treat it as emo, since it's what most people have come to know about the term I guess.

Hmm, what are friends for?

They hurt you, they mess up your life, they screw up your relationships, they don't back you up, they never consolidate you, they never comfort you, they never help you, they never pick you up when you're down, and God damn hell they don't even friggin care about your life.

Pfft, some friends I've got.

Maybe it doesn't imply to you, but that's how obscure the people in my petty little life are.

And when I mean EVERYONE, I really mean EVERYONE.

Yes, take note. E-V-E-R-Y-O-N-E.

Pfft. No wonder I don't have best friends.

What actually are best friends?

People who come close to you just to fuck up your life even more?

Never would I believe anything like that anymore. Life is too stupid to begin with.

Bitches, assholes, bastards, assenines, hypocrites. Fuuh, how complete my life wouldn't my life be without them?

My sheer existence doesn't bring any difference to the people that I know, why bother about those that I don't know.

The surreptitious presence and the silent and nimble movement of my shadows are never noticed, bet they never will be.

Tsk tsk, what can I believe in now?

"Friends". Yeah rite.

I'd die faster relying on them.

Pfft, that's how apathetic life has been for the past 17years.

Ugghh, I'm utterly disappointed and it's utmost saddening to just look at myself in the mirror.

I think I deserve more than this fucked up shit right now.

I'm a changed person, undoubtedly.

But I've changed for you have changed me. Pfft.

I'm like a mere puppet at your disposal all this while, nothing more, and nothing less, or at least I think nothing less.

Is it so fun to be doing this to me? Gawd, I hope you enjoyed every second of it, coz I'm gone now. Yes, G-O-N-E.

Pfft, fucked up life.


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Sometimes, the best way to know something is to not know it at all.

Pfft, I've been thinking too much again.

Wonder what's on people's mind sometimes. When you're committed to something, you try your best into making sure that it works out fine.

If so, why do people tend to neglect that part of the commitment?

Sighs, if I'm so happy, why do I feel some part of sadness somewhere?

Pfft, yet again, I'm thinking too much...

Or am I not?


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Drops of Jupiter

Alrites, as mentioned in the previous post, 40 Kinds of Sadness is over.

So I present to you...

Jeng jeng jeng jeng.

Drops of Jupiter.

Inspired of course by Train's song. >=D

Will be officially posting soon.

Toodles. <3


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40 Kinds of Sadness

It's time to change.

Yes, yes.

40 Kinds of Sadness is long gone.

Shall start a new chapter to this.

Coming soon.

Stay tuned. =)


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I'm wondering as I sit here in my cold apathetic corner, to why am I such a lifeless pathetic person?

Hmm, I wonder, is it me or just the people that I socialize with?

Sighs. Whatever la.

It seems that all the girls I know is either older than me, paired up with someone else, only treats me as a good friend, or they're family related.

They're never close enough it seems. Maybe it's me? =/

Well, I don't know.

Or maybe it's because I had spent too much time with baybe previously that now everyone I know seems to be further apart from me. I really don't know.

Hmm, a rather lonely night this is, pretty much indifferent to any other night when I need someone. Turns out everytime this happens, nobody's there.

I used to have baybe by my side, but she's gone now and that chapter of my life is over.

My phone beeped and rang, but it wasn't anyone who wanted to talk to me bout' my stuff.

I'm down with a fever now by the way. And trust me, it sucks.

Why oh why must things be this way?

When will I ever find someone who will want to share my life with me as I would for her?

Hmm, friends. What total bullshit is that.

I can't believe that I've been mixing around with people that I know have lied and deceived me. I'm just so stupid.

I'm such an absurd fool. A pathetic one too.

Gals. How they make and break your heart. Tsk tsk.

Either too far from me, or too close but yet so far, or just plain never wanting to be with me. Sighs. Someone please answer me and put me out of my misery.

Screw my life of obscurity. Wtf is wrong with me.

Feeling rather dizzy and sick. >=(

Why can't there be a girl sensible enough to understand that I wanna be with her?

Why can't there be a girl who understands that I just wanna spend time with her, and her alone?

Why can't there be a girl who would be faithful to the person she truly enjoys being with?

Why can't there be a girl who would understand that I just wanna hold her hand, hug her and tell her that I love you?

Sighs. Of all the things to post a month before SPM. Jiwangz.

Fuck my life.


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What is love?

Is love really that special?

Or is it the person that you love that makes it special?

Or maybe it's how you spend time with that person that makes it special?

How is love special?


In need of some answers, sighs.

I feel rather depressed on moody right now, a lil' down and sad, but whatever.


Boyfriend for sale~!

Going once, twice, SOLD to the girl in the green dress with the signboard which says " I love Neonie~!".

Wtf is wrong with me.


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The 10 things a girlfriend did to me :

1 <3 I stopped eating ice from drinks. She claimed it was unhealthy as we were at mamak stalls often and she said that the ice were made of unknown water.

2 <3 The way I sms or IM is sorta weird-ish. There's always those "...." after every word.

3 <3 I came to appreciate more sentimental and lovey dovey songs.

4 <3 I picked up memorizing people's numbers on my phonebook.

5 <3 I organized my MSN contacts into groups.

6 <3 I started craving for ice-cream even more, especially chocolate ice-creams from Haagen Daaz.

7 <3 I picked up poetry. Refer to my other bloggie for more info bout' my poems.

8 <3 I use her name in almost every essay I write, wtf.

9 <3 I became a much wiser, self-motivated person when she's around. Coz coz she's my study buddy and my tutor at the same time. Hehe.

10 <3 Lastly, I'm single at the moment. What an impact that has made to me. Hoho. Kidding, lastly... I now like to hang out late at night and go for outings.



Thanks baybe, for what you have done to me for these 3years.

I missed out on a lot of the details I know, but I'll make up for it in some other post, aye?

Toodles. <3


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What happens when you mix Unicorn with Neonie?

Don't know?

Well, you get Unicorn Neonie. Haha. <3

>=D


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Top 5 things on my birthday wishlist this year :

1. You, but it's like totally out of the equation
2. A best friend who won't judge me for what I say and will be there whenever I need him/her
3. To be able to post all my poems without plagiarism
4. 10A's for SPM, yeah right
5. To be able to strum a couple of songs with me guitar



Even if one of those comes true I would be more than happy, sighs.

Now for the top 5 things I don't want to happen before I started the year :

1. Losing you
2. Meeting more bitches, bastards and being backstabbed
3. Stone and not study at all
4. Be lost in a love dilemma
5. Fail any of my subjects


Well, 4 out of 5 pretty much sums up the whole year.

And yeah, truth be told, I almost failed my Add Maths, just 2 marks above the passing grade. Hohoho. >=D

What a distorted year, full of crap and idiocy. Oh well, hoping for a better tomorrow which doesn't seem to come. Toodles.


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This will be like what, the first time in 3 years that I'm gonna celebrate my birthday without you.

Gosh, what an unpleasant and weird situation this is.

Wish you were still here. Sighs, if only...


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