40 Kinds of Sadness

What a screwed up day. Sighs, had a torn blister on my leg and knowing that my Biology only scored 9/60 is rather upsetting.

But hey, there are some brighter days ahead I'm sure, so why bother anyway.

Hmm, I can feel that we're not as close as how we used to be these past few days.
Somehow, I can tell, but then, I ain't sure of it.

The considered late replies for me, and the very lack of attention you seek from me and the messages that you sent to me earlier, made it clear that I'm not the only one, am I not?

Well, it doesn't matter, coz' it is not in my reach to stop you from feeling this way.

I never seem to get things right whenever I want to, but I always tend to overdo things whenever the time isn't right.

Sometimes I wonder, what kind of friends do I have.

They seldom wish me on my birthday for starters.
They never wish me luck during my exams (although I have alloy, but don't have to be like that la), whereas I have to be the one sms-ing like 20+ people at a time and some don't even reply, but I still don't get bothered by it.
They seldom ask about how I'm doing and what do I do in my life.
They have never asked about my feelings.
They have never spared time for me (or yet I think that way).

Hmm, maybe it's me just being this way. Or is it?

I hope it's just me, for I wouldn't want to know if it isn't.

Anyhow, I feel something's wrong now. I'm sure you feel that way too.

But then, I hope we'll get to know soon what is it.

Maybe you already do, for you have even asked me what I feared you would say. Tsk tsk, I shouldn't be thinking too much.

But I just can't help to know that despite this, you have come to turn your back and walk away.

Funny how that sounds, coz' I'm sorta like feeling that song from Westlife and Mariah Carey, "Against All Odds".

Arrghh, whatever la. It's not like I can do anything too, and I hate to force people to like me.

Guess that's all for today.


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