40 Kinds of Sadness

I'm wondering as I sit here in my cold apathetic corner, to why am I such a lifeless pathetic person?

Hmm, I wonder, is it me or just the people that I socialize with?

Sighs. Whatever la.

It seems that all the girls I know is either older than me, paired up with someone else, only treats me as a good friend, or they're family related.

They're never close enough it seems. Maybe it's me? =/

Well, I don't know.

Or maybe it's because I had spent too much time with baybe previously that now everyone I know seems to be further apart from me. I really don't know.

Hmm, a rather lonely night this is, pretty much indifferent to any other night when I need someone. Turns out everytime this happens, nobody's there.

I used to have baybe by my side, but she's gone now and that chapter of my life is over.

My phone beeped and rang, but it wasn't anyone who wanted to talk to me bout' my stuff.

I'm down with a fever now by the way. And trust me, it sucks.

Why oh why must things be this way?

When will I ever find someone who will want to share my life with me as I would for her?

Hmm, friends. What total bullshit is that.

I can't believe that I've been mixing around with people that I know have lied and deceived me. I'm just so stupid.

I'm such an absurd fool. A pathetic one too.

Gals. How they make and break your heart. Tsk tsk.

Either too far from me, or too close but yet so far, or just plain never wanting to be with me. Sighs. Someone please answer me and put me out of my misery.

Screw my life of obscurity. Wtf is wrong with me.

Feeling rather dizzy and sick. >=(

Why can't there be a girl sensible enough to understand that I wanna be with her?

Why can't there be a girl who understands that I just wanna spend time with her, and her alone?

Why can't there be a girl who would be faithful to the person she truly enjoys being with?

Why can't there be a girl who would understand that I just wanna hold her hand, hug her and tell her that I love you?

Sighs. Of all the things to post a month before SPM. Jiwangz.

Fuck my life.


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